Are we born sinners??

So, since it is good Friday and all, (I really did not realize this until someone mentioned it, because I do not really pay attention to religions anymore) I figured I would address some things about this day, and those that follow it.

So the concept I want to tackle right now, is "born sinners".

The idea is that we are all born sinners, and the only way to get into heaven when we die, is by accepting Jesus as our lord and savior and the son of god. So the best way to tackle this I believe is to break it all down, piece by piece.

We are born... Okay that part I agree with, you have a body, then you were born into the physical reality we share right now.WE are born sinners... this is where you lose me completely. I do not see how a baby even CAN sin.. not to mention, WHO decides what is a sin and what is not? Some book written by men who were scared of women having power? God? You? Me? There really is no answer, because there is no such thing as sin. Yes I said it, THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS SIN. What is wrong for you might be perfectly great for another. Now before your head explodes, let me explain some things.

First, we are not bodies, with a spirit, as most seem to think. We are spiritual beings, that CHOSE to come here to incarnate into the physical bodies we are in right now. We are eternal, source energy. Now, tell me how source energy, can possible be "bad" in ANY way. Does this mean I support anything anyone does, no matter how crappy the action is??? No, I do not. But I DO understand things from a higher perspective than most are viewing life from. So being that we are eternal beings that come from source energy, there is no way we even COULD be "evil" in any way. So that debunks the whole "you were born wrong, and need me" argument of why Jesus came to earth. He came to be great creator of his reality, just as you and I have. The difference is that he remembered this. Most of *US* do not.

Now moving on the the concept that heaven must be gained admission to with some kind of pass, earned here on earth while alive. Jesus said, "the kingdom of heaven is inside you"... he did not mean heaven as in some place you can only get to when you croak. What that statement meant was, all that you are searching for is INSIDE you. Once you open yourself up to that source energy, when you release the resistance to it, you find the most astounding happiness, and THAT was what he was talking about. Why would we come and incarnate, just to suffer till death when we can become pure love again??? We already were pure love, so why incarnate at all, just to suffer?

Now some say, he was the light of God, and you would be right.. but what is usually missed, is that we are ALL lights of God. YES, ALL OF US!!! Even the ones we do not want to see as lights of God. Everyone comes with gifts, everyone comes from pure source energy, pure love. What creates discord, is when we go against what our soul or source energy knows to be true.

"God made man in his image"
So most think that means god looks like us... like a white dude with a beard usually... for some reason people tend to think that is who is most god-like? In anycase, this scripture was mis-interpreted as well. God DID make man in his image, however it was not a physical image this is talking about.  What is actually means is.. we are all great creators, just as God is. We create reality, every one of us, is creating out world around us, ALL THE TIME. We are all God's and Goddesses in our own rights.

So I can't change your beliefs, but maybe I CAN make you think about your relationship with God, yourself, and think about the idea, that maybe you are not "bad" in need to saving, but just disconnected, and in need of reconnecting with yourself, and your source energy.

From my soul to yours....
Namaste~

Vision

Today, I really realized, that one of my big visions for myself has come to life. About 14 years ago, I had an idea to do music in the studio, with me playing ALL the parts... well at the time I only sang and played rhythm guitar. I had been a drummer for a number of years, but I did not own a set. I did not even have a decent amp. All I had was talent, drive, and a great idea.  I was living in a room rental that was not horrible, but certainly not great, so I was not exactly in the best circumstances. But like some of the things I am realizing lately, sometimes it is when things are at their worst, that they are actually at their best. A lot of big desire comes from hard times. For me it was to have a studio of my own, and to be my own band in it.

Well that day is here, now. My studio could stand some upgrades for sure, BUT I am there! I am where I wanted to be all those years ago. And now my music is more satisfying than it ever was before. Now I get my vision much clearer, rather than settling for whatever someone thinks it should sound like. I am grateful for where I am now, even though doing this is a TON of work. In the end it is all worth it, not only for me to get the sound I am after, but the realization that I made one of my bigger dreams come true, and I did not push it... I just followed naturally towards it. Now I am playing guitar, rhythm and lead, and doing really good leads... singing well, doing harmonies, playing solid and different drum lines, and holding it down on bass, in the pocket.

Do I want to keep it just me forever??? Probably not, there are things I want to do in the future that will require I work with other people, but for now I am enjoying the process, writing new music, from a new viewpoint. I think I am right on track for where I should be for now.

I am recording, booking gigs, writing... I am pretty much enmeshed in music, and loving getting back to being more authentically me.

Studio time...

I've been doing a bit of recording lately(okay a lot), and writing new stuff. Now that I have an electric drum kit, I am now playing my drum parts. Being that I am a stickler for the drums being perfect, it is taking a bit longer than programming... at least this last song has been, because there are a ton of stops, and I want everything just so. And I have not been a regular drummer in many years, so there is a good bit of rust on my playing, but I am getting the job done, and it is GREAT to think about and play with different beats to really pick something that makes the song work.

I am starting a weekly gig at a coffee house downtown, every Sunday afternoon, so that should be fun! My first regular gig in this city.... well since I was a teen playing all over the place, but that was back in the 80's (yeah my age is hanging out lol) I really was just a kid, playing all kinds of shows. I was also a full time drummer back then.

I put some feelers out for other musicians to form a band with, but so far nothing worth pursuing yet. I am not settling for less than amazing, so I don't expect for people to just fall from the sky in droves or anything... but I think my solo performance will be so much better than it ever has been, not having a band is not gonna hold me back at all.

New music is on the horizon, so stay tuned in and ready. :D

The can't all be good

So I have been on a roll, of feeling really great! Doing all my inner work, meditating, reading, working out, eating better... all that stuff is great, but then there's the relationship stuff. I'd rather really just forget there are such things at this point, but I know that's not gonna happen. You need people around you.... although I do not need a man in my life. Not in the romantic sense... not sure that I am done with that, but I am certainly taking a nice long break to figure out why I keep attracting essentially the same crap over and over.

Normally moving on from a relationship sucks... but when there is a kid involved, and an abusive ex... things get stupid really quick. I am feeling the pressure these days... I have not received child support in, well going on two years really. Although I did get some last year, one time... only because they took tax return money to pay some of the back support. So he's an asshat, cause supposedly he owns two businesses that are doing well... but I already knew he was an asshat... that's why I kicked his sorry ass out!

Of course, do I go on and find a good man? Well sort of, but not really. The next one was not abusive, just totally unavailable emotionally, and totally misrepresented who he was. I am clear who I am, and I was totally upfront about it... but a year and a half later, and they guy decides, maybe he wants to be single, and he does not like the city (where we live and met). Of I am honest, the relationship was hardly fulfilling anyway... I give up. At least for a while. I have no clue how to trust a relationship type thing right now anyway.

So here I am jobless, about to have to move out of my apt, and not sure what I am gonna do, how I am gonna support my son and I, where I will go... everything feels so huge right now.

I guess they can't all be good days...

Be happy now!

Why are there not more happy people in the world?

Most of us have been conditioned to want certain things in life with the expectation, that in the getting of these things we will them be happy. We strive to get a good education, a good job, the perfect spouse, the right car, house, clothes, and yet, so many are not happy. Those that are achieving their goals, say they will be happy when they get them achieved. Or they will be happy when they find love, more money, a better car, lose weight... oh the list goes on and on and on.... and... on...

When they achieve said goal, then most still are not happy. So why is this? A lot never get to said goal, Why is this?

They are waiting for the world around them to be just so, so that everything falls into place, and then they can be happy. That seems reasonable right??? UM no. Actually, the world will always be the world. You can not bend the world into what you need to be happy. If you try, you will find (as a lot of us do) that the world, keeps on being the world.

So what is the secret of happy people? Did they figure out how to get the world around them to bend to their desires, and therefor allow them to be happy? Do they have some magic secret the rest don't know? Did they have perfect lives, and so of course they are happy?

The answer, is they do not wait to be happy. If you are waiting on something to be happy, you spend a lot of your life unhappy, just waiting. Not only that, but in your unhappiness, you attract more things to be unhappy about. The answer is not outside you. The answer is inside... connect with who you really are, honor that person, and be authentic. Make happiness your goal. But if you are in despair  don't expect to jump right up to being happy, reach for anger, then annoyance, then hope, then joy... step by step... and soon, you find you are happy, no matter what the world around you is doing.

All this inner work I am doing has made me so insanely happy lately. Usually the only way I feel like this is when I am newly falling in love... but this time, I am single, and not even trying to date. I did not win a bunch of money (well not yet)... outwardly, some might wonder what the heck I have to be so happy about... but I see so much to be grateful and happy about. And it is in that gratefulness  that I find myself getting insanely happy.

So stop waiting for everything to be perfect, and be happy NOW!

Into the great unkown

So onward into the great unknown places of self.

So I have written a bit about this spiritual awakening I have been having lately. Well sometimes I think, "Am I really changing that much, or am I just seeing what I want to see?" Well this last week I got my answer. Two friends that have known me for a while, both told me they see huge changes in me. This is great news, now I just have to keep the momentum going, so to speak.

So part of my transformation I am doing, is I have started meditating daily... 15 min at a time. I got a meditation CD with Abraham's words on it. It is for letting your resistance go, to get into your vortex of creation. Well it is working AMAZINGLY! I feel so connected and happy!

I find myself doing dishes and singing, with no music on. I find myself walking through the store and just smiling, for no real reason. I find myself humming for no reason. I feel that same feeling you get when you first fall in love, but this time there is no "special someone" that can let me down, or break my heart... this is my falling in live with life, with me!

Now there are some on my life I feel like are acting on auto pilot, and seem to want me to engage in harsh words, judging others, seeing our differences... well if they knew what I have learned lately, they would not want the world to change, or people to be anything other than who they are. I suppose I should send them love and light and realize, they are not enlightened yet, and they will not be unless THEY chose to be. You can not force enlightenment on others, they have to find it themselves. I thin this is a big lesson for me these days, trying to figure out who I can introduce to this stuff, and who I might out to just leave them be. I have noticed also that certain people are kind of falling out of my life, those that have nothing to focus on but the negative, are just kind of falling away. Fine by me, because I am learning to be selfish in that I WILL NOT focus on your negative views, because they harm me, and my deliberate creations I am creating now.

These last few weeks have been trans formative for me it seems. I feel as if I have been dropping weight after weight from my past, from my childhood, self views, past relationships are becoming more clear to me, and I am seeing my part in creating all that I have experienced. I am practicing and learning ways to stay in a happy place, no matter what is going on around me. I can not say I have always been successful, but I am certainly getting there. Thing are falling back into place in my mind, my creativity, my fitness, my view of my future.  I am not so much learning, as remembering.

I feel like those connect the dot pictures, I could see the dots, but they just seemed random, and I could not see the bigger picture from the dots. Now I feel like the dots are being connected, and I am able to stand back on go... OOOOOHHHHH so that is what it all is!

In my eagerness to share what I am learning I think I may be pushing some people away, unmeaningly. The studying I am doing, says that if you are not getting resistance from others, you are not there quite yet. I am seeing some people seem to fall away. I am learning to stand in my truth, weather they join me there or not. And I am letting go of the need, for them to join me. I realized, I spent I lot of my life trying to "fix" what others did not want fixed, or said they did, but in actuality, their behavior showed otherwise. I used to see only the good in people, but over time, and with the help of others, I started to let go of that. I thought it would serve me better to see people "as they really are"... well, I am learning that what I had before, the ability to see the good in all... was not a bad thing at all. It meant I was more connected to source, and thus was seeing them through the eyes of source, and since source does not see anything "wrong" with any of us, that is how I would see them. Now some of those people WERE really great, and really were who I thought they were. Others were disappointing  because they did not live up to what I saw them as. Now one might think that means they are the issue, I certainly did for a long time. BUT I have now realized that it is their choice to be who they really are, or not. My expecting them to live up to it, was the issue, not their choice not to. I have no idea what lessons they came to learn, or what their purpose is. Maybe it is to experience disconnect with themselves to learn to find themselves, or just to experience being disconnected. In any case  their decisions should not keep me from being connected to my source, and if it does, then I need to work on my connection.

So this is my first blog post on my new personal blog. I decided that since I do so many different things, a personal blog would be good. Besides I tend to want to talk about things other than just business stuff, and so this is a good place to start.

Over the last few months, I have been going through some kind of spiritual awakening, or remembering... what you call it does not matter, the point is, I am changing in big ways. I have always been curious about the universe and the nature of things. I loved science as a kid, because it let us explore the world with new eyes. Even the most simple thing can amaze you under a microscope.

I have also always been interested in spirituality for the better part of my life. I have studied religions of all sorts, attended some churches, and did a lot of thinking about the nature of God, and what or who God is. I came to the conclusion many years ago, that we can not truly grasp who/what God is, because our human minds, just can not think that expansively. I still think that.

Now, fast forward to a few months back. I got my hands on some books... sure that is pretty normal for me, I do like books... sometimes just for the sake of books, but I do read them as well. Well I came across the teachings of Abraham online, and went searching for the books written by Abraham. I have found a lot of them, and have been sucking them up. I found a lot of info about Abraham's teachings online as well. I have been sucking that up as well. Abraham is a group of non-physical entities that speak through Esther Hicks. Their wisdom and words ring true down to my very soul. This is the sort of truth I search for. I am learning and applying (sometimes better than other times) the laws of attraction, and vibration. Outwardly, things might not seem to different, but inside... it is a whole new way of thinking. I have dropped so many old beliefs in the short period of time I have been studying it. I see the issues in the world, from a new viewpoint. I am not becoming less compassionate, just more aware, that the only person I can truly do anything for, is myself. And in doing that, working on ME and my thoughts, I help the world as well. This is all very vague, and I understand this... I am not ready to write a whole book here yet. This process has put me back in touch with my inner self, and what I come here to do.

What is that you might ask??? Well that would be music!!! So you might read a lot about that here as well. I am not going to name drop, but once I started to apply these concepts, and realized that I HAVE to choose music if I am ever to be as fulfilled as I can be, and once I decided that.... some big things started changing. I have found some allies in the music business that are big enough in the industry, to actually give me some guidance and such. I have never had access to these people before, and now I am having them call ME! <3

Bye for now... love and light always!